Title: Anger
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Blog Entry: It comes, it goes. Sometimes it's hard to identify the reason, and if you cannot identify it then it's hard to let go... Sleeping on the mountain last night, away from the distractions of people and things, was good for my spirit. It allowed me to listen/hear the things I have been ignoring and/or denying. One anger is the wars. I support the troops, I do not support the war. Another generation of our youth is repeating the mistakes of our Congress... My biggest anger is at my physicians. How could my diagnosis go from --lumpectomy/no node involvement/radiation only because your scans are clean--to lymph node involvement and gotta do a biopsy on that spot on your liver? I am very grateful for the new and younger oncologist who insisted on another biopsy...I'm disappointed with the others for missing it. And I'm angry with them. They have been monitoring me since the first cancer, and supposedly have been very watchful because of my exposure to Agent Orange. Yeah, right. I am angry at these humans. I will work through it and let go of it. But I had to give myself permission to seek the source of my anger/sadness before I could understand this detour on my path. I don't understand it yet. All I understand right now is things have changed, and I must adjust. I will. My mask of strength and stamina was cracking, I know why now. Gonna be bare-faced for awhile. It appears it's time for me to let go of a lot of things. Peace, Donnah
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