Ok, here goes. I'm on dissability. Classified, severe depressive, anxiety attacks, agora phobia, and something going on inside me that their sending me to numerous Doctors to find out exactly what it is. I have a memory problem,.. aparently the little vessels in my brain want to die off. At first it was classified as Lupus Vasculitice. Now, their not sure. My memory sucks, some things I remember, some things I don't.
Agora Phobia = I hate going out, I only go out when its necessary. Doctors, grocery's etc. I can't stand being in the public. Makes me nervious. People make me nervious. To be totally honest, the doctor said its a lack of trust of people in general. All due to past happenings.
Me making friends in life.... its hard for me to get close to people in the emotions dept. Thats why I turned to the computer for friends. See, I can get into one on one conversations on the computer and make friends........ Oh I know this sounds nuts... and I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I don't get into the forums to chat, I feel out of place, and have a hard time joining in. And I don't want to just sit there ane evesdrop.
Those of you who don't think I'm too crazy to bother with, I am on here to make friends. And hope some of you will give me a chance.
I had one friendship started --Bekspaw-- but he disapeared. I gave him what I thought was a compliment and poof, he's off my friends list. I just wish I knew why. what I said wrong.
Oh, well, have a good day all... Crystal
