I dont know a lot about blogs.I only know that it was my desire to write some here about what its like to be in need of a transplant.I suppose its the same for any organ,I need lungs or "A lung" or 2 lobes even.A person can live with only 2 lobes so I have read.We have 3 on the right side and 2 on the left.Seems the creator knew his stuff,had to leave room for that big old heart.I started down this road nearly 2 years after I was told I would need one.I suppose it was denial,did'nt want to think it was that serious.I now know without a doubt that without it or a miracle,its over.Transplant candidates are people who have an expected survival of 2 years or less.I have very good days where Im high on life and full of grattitude for time.Time seems precious when your uncertain about your future.I also wonder about the procedure itself,will I survive,how painful is it,how have others done,etc.I think I have read all the stories I could find on the net about transplant survivors.I do not like pity,I seek understanding,empathy,and most importantly truthfulness from others.That being said I wanted to be somewhat of a voice for others in need of organs and their plight,what they experience,thoughts,feelings,all of these things.I have been an organ donor since the program began,never knowing I was one day going to be in need.I am so certain nothing is left of the soul/spirit once the flesh dies that it wouldnt be important what was taken from the body.I believe we step right out of this body like stepping out of a suit into eternity, SO it never ocurred to me to do anything but donate.Out of the people on the waiting lists for lungs each year,something like one third receive.Many die waiting,I will not officially go on "THE LIST" until I have finsihed a battery of vaccinations,tests,heart catherization and others.These tests must be done because after transplantation your are put on immunosuppressant drugs to keep your body from rejecting the donated organ as it is perceived foreign to the body.If there were another illness or anything wrong in the body,your immune system could not fight it off.I will be on some form of antirejection drugs the rest of my life but just after the operation is when there will be the highest concentration.I hope I havent bored you to pieces lol but sometimes i just "need" to talk of it.Maybe Im really talking to me,making it more real to me,sometimes it all feels surreal.In my heart I believe I will make it through all the way but sometimes late at night or in the wee hours of the morning, that fear creeps in and uncetainty once again is at the forefront.It is these times that I want to write,maybe its purging.Thanks for your ear and if you arent a donor think about being one.Drop me a line,let me know your thoughts,Im interested in what others think of transplantation.It used to be like science fiction to me until it became a reality in my life.Write ok?Deajvu777
