All these years later I still think of you. Somehow tears are released with the thoughts. The mind is a wonderful instrument, it can make us forget the most painful memories. Sometimes allowing us to search data to locate the truth, if we ever find the truth more important. However, I seldom felt the need to do that because, for the most part my mind was numb. The only surface remembrances are smiles, smells and sights and, those still bring a tear.
Time isn't a cure. It's only a mask. We never really forget. We only lock it in a safe place so we , ourselves have no access to the pain on a regular bases.
We may ask one another if we have been forgiven, but I'd need to search the what fors, for loving you? because that's the why or at least the beginning of why. Please don't ever forgive me for falling in love with you. It was the greatest time for feelings in my life.
There's a calm in my world most of the time but I find at times within me an eruption I blame on my losses and memories.
I cannot start in the past, I lived there for many years. The past is a world of memories. Forward to the future.
Skye
