Thoughts for today
Lay me to rest on a soft pillow and a blanket of memories to take with me.
Dress my sleeping body in faded blue jeans and a soft blouse, not because I failed to be rich but because this is what gave me comfort along the way. Remember me not as you last saw me but as you knew me.
Don't feel a need to hug me or speak with me because it is too late, I can no longer enjoy the comfort of your arms.
I can no longer hear what you need to say, for this I have regret fore I so needed you through my life. Time gave what it could, I chose how to use it, who to love and need.
Friends were few because it meant commitment, honesty,loyalty,something I couldn't give to everyone.
Set near me fields of flowers, the smells of Spring, the rebirth of the earth.
In my hand place a lock of hair from the man I loved and from me a lock of hair for him, just a memory of our love.
Release me, but, lay me down gently.
Today is what I will call a *f&^%$* day..... Funny I have now resorted to giving the days of the week a new name when it suits me as it does today.
A couple months ago I was rear ended at maybe 45-50 miles an hour by some stupid bitch who felt the importance of a cell phone or a radio station , take your pick, I personally perfer the cell phone theory. When I am not completly busy I find I think of this event as a bad movie and the crash scene is played and heard over and over...I had such a passion for driving long distances, now I fear all drivers who stop too close to me or those who appear as if they will not stop at all. I want to carry signs to stick out my window at them that says,* BACK YOUR ASS UP* or * I MOVED FORWARD TO GET AWAY FROM YOU, STAY WHERE YOU ARE , DO NOT FOLLOW ME* or maybe * YOU ARE CLOSE ENOUGH TO F%$#, PAY ME OR BACK OFF*
Now that felt good to get that off my chest!
