No Real Progress 
I last blogged I don't even remember when. It's been a frustrating few months. I've struggled to alter my eating habits and exercise habits, trading them in for better ones. Now I am in better shape. More endurance. Better flexibility. But no weight loss and no loss of inches either. I'm so frustrated I'm often reduced to tears.
I'd really like to kick the everlivin' shit out of all the "experts" who tout intake vs. output and say that a calorie is a calorie is
a calorie, blah-dee-blah-blah-blah. I'm am living proof to the contrary.
Now I am a BIG woman. Taking up high intensity aerobics or running or anything else that a person of reasonably normal stature can undertake with caution is not an option for me. I'm doing what I CAN do but it isn't what a smaller person could do. I keep thinking it will get easier but that hasn't happened yet!
Please; those of you who read this, DO NOT feel the need to share what worked for you or someone you know. I've been down enough different diet and health roads to write my own atlas. I have come to the conclusion that what works for others DOES NOT work for me. I NEED to find my own way and I'm very able and willing to do my own research at my own pace and log my own progress. I've not given up but neither am I upright and rarin' to go.
Right now I feel discouraged, defeated, disillusioned and more than a little pissed off at people that it comes easy to, who feel they can give me advice when they have NEVER taken so much as a single step in my shoes, within the confines of my life and my circumstnace and most importantly, MY body! I'm soooooooo sick of people telling me "you shouldn't eat that" or "you just need to eat smaller portions" or "just push yourself away from the table while you are still hungry." 
Are you f*cking kidding me???? I'm a 335# woman looking at making permanent lifestyle changes. Can you HONESTLY tell me that you would be willing to "push yourself away while you are still hungry" for the rest of your f*cking life? I'm NOT!!! Hence my overall dissatisfaction with life in general right now!
I'm posting this blog because I believe there are others out there, just like me. Maybe they are afraid to come right out and say or write what I have here. But they FEEL it! Do them a favor. Do me a favor! Don't patronize us and make silly, idol comments like "I know how you feel" when the most excess weight you have EVER carried is 25 pounds. You don't have a CLUE how it feels so don't pretend you do. If you REALLY want to help, and I do mean REALLY... First, close your mouth and lock your lips, determined to LISTEN without interupting or attempting to counsel. Second, offer your ears and your compassionate heart again, same rules. Third, be prepared to learn things you did not know, see things you did not see, and understand things you would not understand in your zeal to step in and DO or SAY something instead of just quietly sitting on your hands, keeping your mouth shut and LISTENING. It is a gift - TRUST ME! It can also be a skill that is cultivated. So ask yourself, do you REALLY want to help or do you just want a forum to showcase your own successes. Only you can answer that question honestly and you'll have to answer to yourself for it if you lie.
To those of you who have had the sad misfortune to make a silly, idol comment to me or to offer counsel on a subject you know nothing about, know that I DO NOT feel sorry I blasted you for it and I DO NOT apologize! Get a f*cking clue and stop shooting your mouth off before you give even a single thought to what it takes for someone who is suffering to give voice to their anguish ~
