I HAVE NOT WRITTEN ANYTHING ABOUT ROBERT FOR QUITE A WHILE BECAUSE I JUST DID NOT KNOW ANYTHING TO WRITE. HE DID SAY JUST A LITTLE UNDER A MONTH AGO THAT IF THEY COULD GET RID OF THE LAST OF THE CANCER ON HIS LIVER THAT HE WOULD NOT BE GETTING A TRANSPLANT BECAUSE THEY FELT IT WOULD BE BEST IF HE HAD HIS LIVER. WELL THAT MAKES A LOT OF SENSE. IT IS ALWAYS TO HAVE YOUR OWN THAN A STRANGERS, YOUR BODY IS USE TO YOURS AFTER ALL. WELL FRIDAY EVENING HE CALLED ME AND ALL OF A SUDDEN THINGS ARE CHANGING??? HE SAID THAT HIS DR'S ASSISTANT CALLED HIM TO LET HIM KNOW THAT DR PRANKO WANTS HIM TO GO TO A REHAB. NOT JUST ANY REHAB BUT ONE IN SOUTH FL THAT COSTS $16,000.00 AND HE HAS TO COME UP WITH $2000.00 OF THAT UP FRONT AND THEN HE CAN GET A GRANT FOR THE REST OF IT. I JUST DON'T KNOW ANYMORE WHAT TO BELIEVE. ROBERT HAS CHANGED SO MUCH AND HAS BECOME SO UNDEPENDABLE THAT WE JUST ARE AT A LOSS AS TO WHAT TO BELIEVE ANYMORE. I FIGURE IF THEY TOLD HIM THAT THEY WERE GOING TO GET RID OF THE CANCER, OR TRY, AND HE WOULD NOT NEED A LIVER, AT LEAST NOT FOR MANY YEARS THEN WHY WOULD THEY ALL OF A SUDDEN WANT HIM TO DO THIS. I KNOW THAT YOU REALLY CAN NOT TRUST SOMEONE WITH AN ADDICTIONE AND IT HAS TAKEN ME A WHILE TO LEARN THIS AND A LOT OF MONEY. WELL I JUST AM DRAINED IN THE CASH DEPT. I ASKED HIM FOR THE NUMBER SO I COULD CALL THEM AND SEE IF THERE WAS ANOTHER WAY AND HE REFUSED TO GIVE ME THE NUMBER, ACTUALLY HAD SEVERAL EXCUSES AS TO WHY HE COULD NOT GIVE IT TO ME RIGHT THEN. SO THE NEXT DAY I CALLED AND TRIED TO GET THE NUMBER AGAIN WELL HE STILL DID NOT HAVE IT HANDY. SO I TOLD HIM TO HAVE THEM CALL ME. HE SAID HE WOULD BUT OF COURSE THEY HAVE NOT AND I KNOW THAT THEY WON'T. I HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT CALLING HIS DR'S ASSISTANT AND JUST ASKING THEM IF THIS IS TRUE AND TELLING HIM THAT WE JUST DO NOT HAVE THAT KIND OF MONEY SO CAN ROBERT GO SOMEWHERE CLOSER TO HOME THAT HIS INSURANCE WILL HOPEFULLY COVER... I JUST DON'T KNOW IF THAT WOULD HURT HIM OR IF THEY WOULD UNDERSTAND ME NEEDING TO KNOW THE TRUTH. ROBERT HAS DRANK ON MORE THAN ONE OCCASION AND YOU KNOW FROM AN EARLIER BLOG THAT HE WAS KICKED OFF OF THE LIST BECAUSE OF ALCHOL SHOWING UP IN HIS BLOODWORK. THAT WAS HARD BUT HE JUST HAD TO WAIT A FEW MONTHS AND HE WOULD BE RELISTED. WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT ??? I DO NOT KNOW. I HOPE AND PRAY THAT I AM NOT BEING A BAD PERSON FOR FEELING THIS WAY. GOD KNOWS I HAVE PRAYED AND ASKED FOR PRAYERS AND DONE EVERYTHING IN MY POWER TO HELP HIM BUT HAVE FINALLY ALMOST REACHED THE POINT THAT I KNOW IF HE IS NOT WILLING TO HELP HIMSELF THAT THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO. ME AND RHONDA HAVE TALKED AND TRIED TO FIGURE THIS OUT ALL WEEKEND. IT JUST DOES NOT MAKE ANY SENSE TO EITHER OF US AND I AM JUST SO TIRED AND MY EYES ARE SO SORE FROM CRYING THAT I DON'T HAVE TO MANY TEARS LEFT. MY AUNT EDNA IS NOT DOING GOOD AT ALL. THE CANCER HAS SPREAD TO HER STOMACH AND THROAT AND MOM IS VERY UPSET OVER THAT SO WE WON'T MENTION WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ROBERT TO HER. SHE IS UPSET ENOUGH AND SO ARE WE. WE LOVE AUNT EDNA VERY VERY MUCH AND HATE IT THAT WE ARE LOSING HER. WE ARE ALSO GOING TO LOSE ROBERT IF HE DOES NOT STRAIGHTEN UP AND DO WHAT THE DR TELLS HIM TO DO, IF IT IS NOT ALREADY TO LATE. I SURE DO HOPE NOT BUT I JUST HAVE A FEELING HE HAS MESSED UP AGAIN AND THEY ARE NOT GOING TO GIVE HIM A LIVER. I CAN'T SAY THAT I BLAME THEM IF HE IS DOING WHAT WE FEAR HE IS DOING... HE DID ADMIT TO ME THAT HE HAS DRANK A COUPLE OF TIMES BUT THAT THEY ONLY CAUGHT HIM THE ONE TIME. THAT IS WHY I AM SO CONFUSED AND MIXED UP AND DISTRAUGHT. I DO NOT WANT TO LOSE ROBERT. I DO NOT WANT TO SIT AND WATCH HIM DIE. IT IS SO HARD TO EVEN TYPE THOSE WORDS BUT I HAVE TO BE HONEST HERE. I AM ASKING FOR YOU ALL TO PLEASE PRAY FOR ME AND RHONDA THIS TIME. WE NEED IT SO BAD. GUIDANCE TO KNOW WHAT TO DO AND TO HELP US COME TO TERMS WITH EVERYTHING. I DO STILL WANT YOU TO PLEASE PRAY FOR ROBERT BUT FOR SOME REASON THAT I HOPE YOU CAN UNDERSTAND RHONDA AND MYSELF NEED PRAYERS REALLY BAD. WE HAVE HAD A TERRIBLE WEEKEND AND ARE BOTH SO EXHAUSTED. I KNOW I HAVE NOT GOT MUCH SLEEP AT ALL THIS WEEKEND AND NEITHER HAS RHONDA. IT IS THE HARDEST THING EITHER OF US HAS EVER HAD TO DEAL WITH IN OUR LIVES. THE THOUGHT OF LOSING OUR BABY BROTHER IS ALMOST MORE THAN EITHER OF US CAN BEAR BUT IT MAY BE WHAT WE ARE FACING. THANK YOU FOR BEING HERE AND FOR READING THIS. LOVE TO YOU ALL, LINDA(RHONDA SENDS HER THANKS ALSO)
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