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Linda , you hit the nail on the head for me. After my auto accident and after my life changed I kept a journal for years about how i felt about being hurt , the changes it causes , the friends i lost . It came in handy in many ways . I have not done it or thought of putting my words down on my computer ( have only had it about 4 yrs or so that is why i am still a computer dummy here and Debbie can vouch for it .But as i grew to accept the changes in my life, my new friends , and let the past go I became a someone better person for it . I still write at times ,specially when some jerk sends me a email on my aol name and ask stupid questions but I have learned to deal with most of it but there are times it still gets to me and one day like i said in the other topic I will write in here so you all will know more about me, and only hope that you all will accept me as me . Deep in my heart I think you will and I thank each of you for being who you are to me .

hugs and love my friend

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Sandy, we will accept and love you just as you are...there is NOTHING you could share that would change the friendship we all share with you.

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“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.” - Dr. Seuss

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Sandy, thanks for sharing with us. It helps just to know that there are others out there that are feeling like we do. I have been really depressed for the last few months about the state of my health. There are things within my power that I can do to improve my health yet I cannot make myself do what I need to do. About 3 weeks ago I started on Wellbutrin to see if that would help. It is making me cut down on my smoking but I am not sure if it is doing much good with the depression. A lot of the anti-depressants take as much as six weeks to be fully working in your system. We will see.

sassy_sandy wrote: Linda , you hit the nail on the head for me. After my auto accident and after my life changed I kept a journal for years about how i felt about being hurt , the changes it causes , the friends i lost . It came in handy in many ways . I have not done it or thought of putting my words down on my computer ( have only had it about 4 yrs or so that is why i am still a computer dummy here and Debbie can vouch for it .But as i grew to accept the changes in my life, my new friends , and let the past go I became a someone better person for it . I still write at times ,specially when some jerk sends me a email on my aol name and ask stupid questions but I have learned to deal with most of it but there are times it still gets to me and one day like i said in the other topic I will write in here so you all will know more about me, and only hope that you all will accept me as me . Deep in my heart I think you will and I thank each of you for being who you are to me . hugs and love my friend

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Mimi134 wrote: Sandy, we will accept and love you just as you are...there is NOTHING you could share that would change the friendship we all share with you.

A BIG AMEN TO THIS. YOU COULD NEVER SAY ANYTHING THAT WOULD MAKE US STOP LOVING YOU. YOU ARE A TERRIFIC PERSON AND FRIEND SO HANG IN THERE UNTIL YOU ARE READY. WE WILL ALWAYS BE READY TO LISTEN, NOT JUDGE!!!

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Linda_113 wrote: Sandy, thanks for sharing with us. It helps just to know that there are others out there that are feeling like we do. I have been really depressed for the last few months about the state of my health. There are things within my power that I can do to improve my health yet I cannot make myself do what I need to do. About 3 weeks ago I started on Wellbutrin to see if that would help. It is making me cut down on my smoking but I am not sure if it is doing much good with the depression. A lot of the anti-depressants take as much as six weeks to be fully working in your system. We will see. sassy_sandy wrote: Linda , you hit the nail on the head for me. After my auto accident and after my life changed I kept a journal for years about how i felt about being hurt , the changes it causes , the friends i lost . It came in handy in many ways . I have not done it or thought of putting my words down on my computer ( have only had it about 4 yrs or so that is why i am still a computer dummy here and Debbie can vouch for it .But as i grew to accept the changes in my life, my new friends , and let the past go I became a someone better person for it . I still write at times ,specially when some jerk sends me a email on my aol name and ask stupid questions but I have learned to deal with most of it but there are times it still gets to me and one day like i said in the other topic I will write in here so you all will know more about me, and only hope that you all will accept me as me . Deep in my heart I think you will and I thank each of you for being who you are to me . hugs and love my friend

most of mine deals with my health Linda and thank you all for your kind words they mean the world to me and to know i have friends like you to listen to me

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Expressing Hurt & Anger

Thank you, Linda. You're so right about having a way to express your feelings. It releases the pressure I feel inside. I have written in my blogs about the feeling I have when these dark days hit, and it has always help me feel better.
I did keep a journal for a long time, but got frustrated with it when I had a real breakdown. I have released my pain by either crying or cutting. The cutting made me feel good. The pain of the cuts would last a few days, and some how, it represented the pain I felt inside. In my crazy head, I had turned the emotional pain into physical, and I could do something about that. Of course, this only works for a small time, and it doesn't get rid of the emotional pain.
I'm taking Effexor, and Xanax for my depression, and anxiety attacks. The meds have helped me a great deal, but there are still those 'dark days', as I call them, that not even the meds can control. That's when I use the Xanax... it will normally put me to sleep. Sleep is one way I have of escaping from depression's grip.
I've always had these problems, and I knew that I was suffering, but I was never comfortable showing it or talking about it with anyone when I was younger. I always pretended to be happy when I wasn't. At other times I was the happiest person around. It was a mess. Of course, back then this wasn't seen as a disease... you were just 'a drag' to be around.

I love this group. It's a place to express and talk about it with others that suffer from this torment.
I want to put videos together because it will help me deal with it better. I'll post them here. It's just therapy for myself. An expression and/or relief from it. It's beats the getting the razor out.
When I feel good, I can't believe that I actually cut myself up the way I do, but... I have to get away from doing that. It's a self destructive, and I know and I have to overcome it.

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Linda_113 wrote: About twenty years ago I discovered a marvelous way to handle my depression. I wrote about it. I kept it in my computer with a password protect so that no one else could access it. Sometimes I would sit for hours typing away and I always came away feeling better. I wrote about every feeling I had and believe me I said a lot of terrible things; things that I would NEVER let anyone see. If you feel comfortable writing about your feelings here this group could be very good therapy for you. If you are not comfortable sharing some of your more vicious thoughts perhaps you could start a journal of some sort to express your feelings. By whatever means you choose, try to express your feelings. I promise you it will help you feel better.

Keeping a journal was the suggestion from my doctor when I had a breakdown and was in the phyc. ward. He read my journal every day and encouraged me to keep it up. This I did for several years. I no longer do that. My husband is my sounding board now. I thank God every day for him. But I do believe writting your feelings down is a good way of dealing with them. If nothing else you can get them out; vent. And one can read it and see if the feelings are justifiable or not and make any necessary changes in the way one looks and/or reacts to any given circumstance.

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About twenty years ago I discovered a marvelous way to handle my depression. I wrote about it. I kept it in my computer with a password protect so that no one else could access it.

Sometimes I would sit for hours typing away and I always came away feeling better. I wrote about every feeling I had and believe me I said a lot of terrible things; things that I would NEVER let anyone see.

If you feel comfortable writing about your feelings here this group could be very good therapy for you. If you are not comfortable sharing some of your more vicious thoughts perhaps you could start a journal of some sort to express your feelings.

By whatever means you choose, try to express your feelings. I promise you it will help you feel better.

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Junie, writing down my feelings has always been very cathardic for me. I need to be doing that right now because I am so depressed about the state of my health. There are things I could do to improve my health but I can't make myself do them. The two things I need to do to help my situation is get better control of my blood sugar and I need to lose weight. The last week or so I have been doing better controlling my blood sugar so I suppose I can pat myself on the back for that.

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