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Linda_113 wrote: I have been on the Wellbutrin for over six weeks now and it is not helping. If anything I feel like I am sliding further into that black hole that we all know so well. I know what I need to do to start coming out of this but I can't find whatever it is within myself to start doing any of it. I feel like screaming at the top of my voice. Yeah Dummy, that would do a lot of good....... HELP!!!!!

First of all talk to your doctor again and tell him it is not working. Maybe there is something else that he can put you on that will help. If there is nothing else he can put you on ask God to give you the strenght everyday to fight. We are all here for you Linda and we love you lots!

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babygirl51 wrote: Linda_113 wrote: I have been on the Wellbutrin for over six weeks now and it is not helping. If anything I feel like I am sliding further into that black hole that we all know so well. I know what I need to do to start coming out of this but I can't find whatever it is within myself to start doing any of it. I feel like screaming at the top of my voice. Yeah Dummy, that would do a lot of good....... HELP!!!!! First of all talk to your doctor again and tell him it is not working. Maybe there is something else that he can put you on that will help. If there is nothing else he can put you on ask God to give you the strenght everyday to fight. We are all here for you Linda and we love you lots!

Nothing wrong with a good scream Linda. I hope you can pull your self out of the hole and like Rita said talk to the man upstairs if your doc cant help you , We need you here lady and if you need a shoulder i carry big ones to help me deal with things and there is always room for a friend
you are very much loved here lady , let those of us who can help you , just reach out . thant is what i had to do when i spilled my guts in here . your friends are here and will grab you
love ya linda

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I'm sorry Linda, I did not know!

Dang woman, I did not realize you were feeling this way. When you have other medical issues and then your home, your hubby, your children, AND depression sets in on top of all of that I think any one would scream!
I agree with Rita about talking to your doctor. I left a post on this very subject to Rae about going off her meds (see post) so I won't repeat myself. You know, when I have found it time to get serious about something, my health, my home, my children, my marriage, I found it best to stop, stop everything, sit down, take a deep breath, and then say, "this is what I am going to work on this week, this month, whatever, and then focus on just ONE thing at a time. If we try to correct everything at one time it only gets worse, or so I have found. Get you a note book, let it be your daily journal. On the first page write down what you will do today or this week and really work on that and only. Example, #1 - Loose one pound this week. Yep, just one pound and then write down and remind yourself to eat a breakfast, a lunch, a dinner, and do this for one week and sure enough at the end of the week you will have lost 1 lb. I know, you are like me and you will say, 1 lb!! It was not worth it, but I promise it is. At the end of that week you have lost one pound and have not beat yourself over not doing all of the othr stuff as you know you will handle it another week. The next week you can go see the doc and alo repeat step one and WOW - you got your meds strighten out and lost another pound - Hot Damn! As you progress it will help, it will make you forgive yourself, and you will feel so much better.
Then the last thing, know I am a phone call away, and call anytime and we can scream together, LOL. Hope this helps in some small way but the bigger thing is, I care about you and love you and just wanted to speak up in my own strange way, LOL!
Oh, also, for me I have found that hearing life is short all the time has finally come true now that I am 55 and so I have let myself off the hook for somethings and now I just want to stay well enough to finish this life off with a bang and say, damn, what a ride!! Hang in there cuz we still have some road trips to take. I know we need to go up to Rita's and Jame's and over to Sassy Sandy's.....lawd, if they only had a clue - teee he he.

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RITA
Thanks for the good advice Rita. I really appreciate your love and concern. I have not responded sooner because I just couldn't.

I am going to give the Wellbutrin a little longer. If it is not going to help me I am going to stop taking the drug. Before prescribing the Wellbutrin, the doctor and I discussed a number of other drugs but in each case he said he didn't want to put me on any of them because of the potential for weight gain. God knows I don't need anything else to put more weight on me.

I had a good day Friday. My husband and I went out to dinner and then did a tad of shopping. I think getting out of this house helped me tremendously.

I have got to keep on trying to pull myself out of this and eventually I will do it.


SANDY
You are such a love. I feel like such a sissy in your presence. Every day you overcome obstacles and just keep on going. I appreciate your love and concern. I will probably call on you for one of those "big shoulders" before it's over.

I am blessed with so much and should begin every day with thanks for all that I have. Instead I am sitting around feeling sorry for myself because of the things I do not have. I don't mean material things. I am totally knocked down because of my many health problems.

The straw that broke the camels back was me gaining that 60 pounds this past spring. My doctor put me on 2 new meds for my diabetes and within 5 or 6 weeks I gained 60 pounds!!! I kept telling the doctor, via his nurse, what was happening with my weight and he would not listen. Finally, when I had an office visit with him he realized what had happened and he took me off those drugs. I have only lost 20 of those extra pounds and I am left with the other 40 pounds.

I feel awful with this extra weight. It is playing havoc with my blood sugar. I can't get comfortable in the bed because of all this extra fat. I'm not comfortable in the car. None of my clothes fit. I look like hell. It's so bad that I don't look in a mirror unless I absolutely have to.


DEB
You are such a sweetie and always so helpful. Be careful about offering to be just a phone call away because I will take you up on it. I still think that road trip is a wonderful idea. If I can ever get well enough to travel we will do it God willing. Wouldn't it be fun!

Your advice about taking one thing at a time and quit looking at the big picture is good. I am trying really hard to do that. I have always been hard on myself for all my shortcomings and perhaps I should try to ease off. Things will NEVER be perfect!!!


MARY
Very good advice about the Prozac. I have taken it a number of time in the past and it worked wonders for me. The last time the doctor put me on it I was no longer able to take the drug. The good thing about the Prozac is that it worked so well and when I didn't need it anymore it was easy to come off of it.

Some of my depression is genetic through my father's side of the family. The thing I am going through now is a case of being totally overwhelmed by my present circumstances. I honestly believe that the way out of this episode is to take the problems one at a time and quit looking at the big picture.


JESS
Though you have no comments here I want to thank you for your unending love and support. We have spent many hours on the phone trying to solve my problems and I appreciate every minute of your time. I love you girl!

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Get out as much as you can Linda. That always helps a person feel better. Say to yourself that you can do it. Take small steps, one day at a time. Yes, you can do it Linda and we are all here to cheer you on!!!

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Wellbutrin

It was a complete waste of time for me, also used for trying to quit ciggarettes. My xanax are my biggest help now but with holidays it is very hard for me to put on the (happy) face as not to bring others down with me. I have severe depression and it only got worse after I lost my husband after 25 wonderful years together. Now, to make things even worse, about 3 months ago, out of the blue I have Hepatitis C! And can no longer drink a couple of beers in the evening. I have drank my beer for many years. So now I am on a (happy) pill. It helps if I try not to think about never, ever drinking my beer anymore, EVER!! There is no way around this Hep-C either as there is no cure. A & B are OK, but the Hep-C will end up with liver cancer and even if I chose to have a few beers anyway and end up with a liver transplant, I would STILL have the virus. It is a mean blood virus and no cure. Sometimes I feel selfish as I gripe to myself about it only being a beer. There are others that are far worse off than I am. There is way more to my depression and how and when it all started and I will write about all that soon. Your crazy friend, BARB.. My (happy) pill actually replaces the buzz I used to get from drinking a few beers every nite. So, now I am an unhappy recovering alcoholic.. Prior to all this news I was doing well on letting the ciggs go and now I am smoking back to full force! Cant believe I just did this on Boomers, lol!!

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Buttercup wrote: It was a complete waste of time for me, also used for trying to quit cigarettes. My xanax are my biggest help now but with holidays it is very hard for me to put on the (happy) face as not to bring others down with me. I have severe depression and it only got worse after I lost my husband after 25 wonderful years together. Now, to make things even worse, about 3 months ago, out of the blue I have Hepatitis C! And can no longer drink a couple of beers in the evening. I have drank my beer for many years. So now I am on a (happy) pill. It helps if I try not to think about never, ever drinking my beer anymore, EVER!! There is no way around this Hep-C either as there is no cure. A & B are OK, but the Hep-C will end up with liver cancer and even if I chose to have a few beers anyway and end up with a liver transplant, I would STILL have the virus. It is a mean blood virus and no cure. Sometimes I feel selfish as I gripe to myself about it only being a beer. There are others that are far worse off than I am. There is way more to my depression and how and when it all started and I will write about all that soon. Your crazy friend, BARB.. My (happy) pill actually replaces the buzz I used to get from drinking a few beers every nite. So, now I am an unhappy recovering alcoholic.. Prior to all this news I was doing well on letting the cigs go and now I am smoking back to full force! Cant believe I just did this on Boomers, lol!!

Barb, I believe you are exactly right about the Wellbutrin. It has definitely cut down on my smoking but I can't say it is helping with the depression. When the doctor prescribed it I didn't have any faith that it would help. I think I am going to take myself off of it because I feel it is just a waste of money. My current plan of attack is accomplishing one thing at a time and quit looking at the big picture. It seems to be helping so far IF I can just keep on doing it. Also, I have been trying to get out of the house more and that is helping too.

I am so sorry to hear about the Hepatitis C diagnosis. I know zero about the condition but I intend to find out about it. When I hear what all you are dealing with I feel like such a sissy with my problems.

I want you to always feel free to come to this site and say whatever is on your mind. We are all in this together and are here to help each other. We will be here when you are ready. We love you sweetie!

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Barb, you are in the right place for friends to wrap their arms around you, to care about you and to let you know you are loved...

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The Wellbutrin isn't working!!!

I have been on the Wellbutrin for over six weeks now and it is not helping. If anything I feel like I am sliding further into that black hole that we all know so well.

I know what I need to do to start coming out of this but I can't find whatever it is within myself to start doing any of it. I feel like screaming at the top of my voice. Yeah Dummy, that would do a lot of good.......

HELP!!!!!

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