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Lately I have been trying something different, I try to send at least one text msg a day to all that are close to me, my kids, my bestest friend in KS, my ex...yea him too hey we were together a long time one can't just erase someone from their lives they are still in your thoughts and prayers.
I got a little carried away the first day and sent one in the morning , the afternoon , and the evening...my oldest son texted me back wanting to know if Ihad joined a cult LOL...ok so I figured one a day was good...just something to let them know I love them I am thinking of them and a little inspirational message...like your in my thoughts and in my heart love hugs and kisses...I make it different each time, my son in Fort hood texted me yesterday, telling me he learned how to put an IV in someone...WHOA ok...um all I could say to that was wow...did you do good? my daughters text back lil msgs like same here...I love you...makes me smile inside and out...even the msg from my son made me smile...the cult one made me laugh, seems like we are so caught up in life...work...whatever...but just sending that text to them is comforting I hope as much for them as for me. but I know every day I think of them and I miss them and I want to be part of their lives...and by doing this I feel I am in some small way cause let me tell ya when they grow up, and fly from the nest they get busy in their lives and don't always take the time to just say hi and let ya know how they are doing...so I feel by doing this...well it gives them the chance to say something back...cause we have come to an age of texting...email...and no one knows how to write a letter anymore or pick up a phone and dial. anyone else have something fun to contribute?

All grown up...at least in the physical sense. Where did all the time go, in a blink of an eye they have become young adults and along with that the responsibilities. AM I prepared? Are they prepared? Brittnee my 21 year old had her baby March 30, Jonah, He has stolen my heart the sneaky little guy, he is growing so fast. Regan 18 in TN due in Oct, My sons wife, due in Feb.
My son Brian in Seattle an awesome landscaper. My Son Ryan 18 off to AIT school for the ARMY in South Carolina till October he has talked of going active.
My son Travis 20, he will be 21 in December, in Texas at Fort Hood in training to go to Iraq August 9th.the last several months for me has been a battle of emotions, please God give me strength. He is so brave, so strong. I on other hand am falling apart.
His wife Jenny she is due in Febuary,they found out after he had left for training.I can't imagine her thoughts or feelings but I know it isn't easy for her, I pray for her, He was able to come home July 4th and spend time with his family befor leaving July 8th to go back.
I am trying to be strong. Think positive, he will be fine he will be home in Febuary for 2 weeks, God will watch over him and protect him. I pray alot. we take so much for granted. My prayers include all the young men and women, that god protect and watch over them all and bring them home safely to their families. Travis I love you, you have grown up so fast. All of my children have.I also pray for them. I love them all more than words can express. They will always be my babies.

Good day to all...I hope everyone is having a good one, why does it have to be a good one how bout a bunch of them...I am changing my greeting LOL I hope everyone is having a bunch of good ones :)
well lets see...so much has happened and is going on...March 30 Jonah came into this world, what a sweet little man of course with him being my grandson he is a prince! He is so cute ... ya just want to hold him forever...he is growing so fast, my goodness he will be 3 months old June 30th where has the time gone?
to be continued...someone has to make a living....

Seems time passes so quickly in a blink of an eye a moment is gone, all those thoughts of things we need to do...could do, but before you know it the moment has passed and it is on to something else, So many events, things to be done, obligations, seems there is never enough time to do the simple things.
I have been very busy with work, I tranferred stores, that made a big difference...out of the muck...the head games and basically the crap. the commute is more..a half hour, but it is worth every minute of it. 10 hour days...can be exausting but again worth it. LOL 11 counting road time. But I like where I am.
Jonah Walker Gregory come into the world March 30, He is so beautiful, and I am in love, who could not fall in love with a sweet beautiful baby...and Britt is such a wonderful Mother I pray she remains that way.
Today I am going to my sons going away party, he leaves in May to go to Texas...then on to Iraq. He is also getting promoted today to E4. I have so many mixed emotions. I am trying to think positive here...alot to process. Going away party? thats a funny way to put it as I don't feel like celebrating my sons leaving.in fact if truth be know I am mad! but I won't share that.I am trying to be positive.
I want to thank everyone that has contimued to send comments, I don't seem to get here alot as there isn't the time in the AM and I am exausted by PM and lately my days off consist of trying to catch up...SO please fogive my slacking....your all in my thoughts.
I am taking my camera today so I will get lots of pics It looks like it is going to be a beautiful day weather wise.

My mood? Can we say all the above? life moments...sometimes episodes...I feel as though I am overwhelmed by them lately.
I look at where I am at in life, where things are going, my children growing up, which seems to be in a blink of an eye at times.
my 2 youngest boys...men? Joining the Army, going to boot camp, the youngest still in highschool, the older getting married, going on to AIT school, working a full time job and being a reserve, I was informed last weekend he is going to Iraq, first he will go to Texas for 3 months at the end of May, then on to Iraq , How does one process this information? I cried.
I admit I was irrational at first...As a Mother I am protective of my children. I don't feel this is being unreasonable. I am sure Jen (wife) feels the same if not more so overwhelmed with it.
Travis is 20 years old, a newlywed, It wasn't easy watching him get married...you know that "He's to young thing" and now going to Iraq...I know I need to be strong, be positive, be supportive, not think in the negative or expect the worst...but...I know I am not the only Mother to go thru this, I am not ready...but are we ever?
I watch my children become young adults the decisions and choices they make in life...my two middle girls expecting their first babies, Britt 21, she is due April 9th, a blink of an eye, she is about to become a Mother, where did the time go? Regan 18, left the nest to go to TN, also expecting, she is young, in so many ways.
I love all my children , not all of the choices they make are going to ones I like or agree with them on...But I realize the choices they make are theirs, right or wrong. I keep alot to myself as far as thoughts & feelings go.
Work has been an emotional rollercoaster for the last 6 months, but I am transferring so hopefully things will start looking up.
Please don't get this wrong I am not complaining as much as I am venting...

It has been a long while since I sat at my torch and created anything...I felt like what I was creating lacked beauty that I had to work at it so hard to make something beautiful. So I let it go in April after almost 3 years...I felt like to me I was not good enough, had lost my passion for my work.
I sat down tonight after months of saying today is the day...funny I don't think I said that today...I just did it. After 10 beads I felt was pretty awesome in an hour and a half and realizing I still have it...LOL whatever it is...I think it is passion and the love of it...but I am not allowing myself the pleasure of believing it just yet for as I was finishing the 10th bead my rose didium glasses broke,ok what does this mean...I mean seriously...well instead of letting it get the best of me I will have them spot welded as they broke along the top over the left eyeglass on the metal, they are clip ons so I think it can be done. It is not the end of the world.
It felt good to be back in the chair again watching the glass melt in the flame and winding it on the mandrel, letting gravity shape it into a beautiful round bead, adding this color and that color to make something lovely...at least to me... I didn't feel I had to work at it like I did, it just seemed to flow into where i wanted.
I used a transparent blue and added light pink to create dots & flowers...I then worked with periwinkle and the transparent blue and added silver foil...and worked some frit into the transparent blue...I felt content with what I created.
That old saying once you learn to ride a bike you never forget...LOL it is true. So...now all I need to do is get my glasses fixed so that I may continue and not fall off the wagon (chair). I probably need to get a new tank of propane...looked like I was running low.
Maybe I can crank out some nice things for Christmas.
Something I would love to do as crazy as this sounds, is to get addresses from my friends on my boomer and send them a bead if they are willing.
A token of love of friendshipthat I found here.

Thank goodness there was a breeze today, I know would complain if it's cold...complain when it's hot, sure will be glad when this heat wave is over.
Would love to throw myself into a pool and just baske in it for awhile.
I have taken on a sub contracting job working with a crew that remodels houses, I love that kinda work...I am more of a physical worker than a sit behind the desk type, I enjoy seeing the finale and knowing I helped do it! Kinda like making glass beads I see it from the beginning to the end.
But boy am I beat...I feel like I worked, thats another thing I love the physical tired dislike the mental.
So do I keep the cashier part time job that pays less has drama and politics & I have worked for them since last November or do I do the sub contracting that pays more I have to drive a little further...it is hot, and hard work...I feel torn, I think that is due to my being loyal, I hate quitting anything.
It is nice to be able to put this into words...instead of keeping it all in my head.

I am relatively new at this...still learning. I have uploaded pics of my creation, and one of my daughter and Bella our peke, I know she looks like a little gremlin LOL.
Seems I am so busy lately with work I haven't torched in forever ... I could be doing it now, I know if I get going I won't want to stop & I have to be to work in an hour and a half....hard to start and not stop. would love a full day of just torching.
Lately I have been busting my own chops working...full time job, part time job, other part time job and I have taken on another...not sure why...money is a good factor. and if I am constantly woring I have no time for...drama...life...not sure.
I am not really sure why I decided to do this...maybe just to reach out there and touch base with others. Seems my life is pretty non social.
Don't get this wrong it is not a woe is me LOL just fact...
Feel free to leave comments concerning my work maybe it will inspire me to get off my butt and in my free time do some torching to make beads.
Thank you