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I Don't Want...
Posted On: 09/01/2008 10:34:57
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 I don't want to become the old person that I am...
lying wait inside pristine walls and surrounded by the delicate adornments begotten from a lifetime of saving.
Nor would I want to be the young person whose youth was stolen and foraged ahead to adulthood with little knowledge of where it would lead.
My destiny has taken me to where I stand...
alone, sometimes sad, lost...
but always alive within my world.
I get to pick and choose who I allow to visit, and the list has gotten smaller over the years.
Experience taught me to not always trust what is visible,
I sometimes have to rely on my gut...
but even then...
I have been fooled by the wisest.
Silly me.
The path before me is unfamiliar and sometimes dark.
Choice is always my option,
but knowing which will provide me with the end result I crave is difficult...
so sometimes...
I don't choose at all and let the chips fall where they may.
The light comes through,
and guides me along the journey...
and I hope that it will guide me gently to where I need to be.
like many,
I try the road less traveled,
only to find the evil, wicked, deceitful scavengers who lie in wait to my vulnerabilities...
hoping to cash in on their secret, hidden pleasures...
but I eventually see through them...
and they become less important in my voyage.
Shame on them who dare to deceive...
for in the end...
they will receive their rightly due.
Scorn those that promise to reprieve and wander off for selfish pursuits...
leaving me in the dusty bowl of life scrambling to find another way.
Eventually the dust will settle...
it will be mine.
Until then, amidst the bustle of life lie I...
still searching...
trying to find.
Needless to say...
I have a way to go...
but in the end...
it will have been my posturing that got me to where I land.
And only I will know if I made the right choices...
and I will see who stands beside me.
PrB
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