I have been married for 24 years.I have three daughter 23 21 an 15.Right now in life I look for a friend.Im not a number person either true friends are hard to find. July 7 had to be the worst day of my life .I was out with my husband for his birthday haveing lunch and thought I would call my mother for her test results needless to say she answered the phone .And said in a straight forward voice Tracy I cant talk right now Im not beating around the bush I was dx with pancreatic cancer and I dont have time to talk right now Im showing your father how to do the bills.My Life came to a complte stop I was in shock.I sat down on the side walk and looked straight ahead in shock at the cars going past then got up and I walked into the resterant and sat down and looked straight ahead my husband said whats wrong .My mother has cancer stage 4 now this was july 7 by August 1 she was gone from my life.It is the deepest hurt that no one would understand unless they went throu it .Apart of me is gone She was there for my first breath and I was there for her last.I still find want to pick the phone but can't very lonely feeling ......Then my father passed 10 months after the day before fathers day. In 88 was dx with M.S. this seems like a breeze compared to what has happened to my mother and father.I can cope with M.S. its has picked me now it has to deal with me......I learn everyday and try to hold my head high knowing inside I will be with you someday........I have learned to forgive more than I use to.Also have brought the lord a lot closer to me now.....I love giving and recieving comments it doesnt cost a thing to put a smile on someones face.All it takes is alittle time if one has it...Got a new puppy that keeps me busy.I love her I named her Farrah she has filled a hole in my heart.
Thanks for reading some of my life....
Wish some of it was a dream but we all know life just don't work that way.
TURN ON'S
Honest people
TURN OFF'S
Liers..... Here for friends nothing but.Been on internet and know how it works.Happy being married.
