this girl is swimming in the sea of despair, she pushes herself more and more towards the surface only to be pushed back down into the darkness with every crashing wave. losing the fight, losing the will, losing herself, but just when she thinks its over she awakes to the laughter from her children and sees them on the floor enjoying laugh, the oldest looks up at her with such a sweet smile gets up and wraps his little arms around her neck, "I love you mommy." for those four words she fights the despair, the sorrow, the anger, for her children she pushes herself to move forward one step in front of the other, day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute, second by second. she knows any other way would only bring them sorrow and despair. she can not allow this, they are her responsibilty, they rely on her, depend on her, for them she lives and fight through another day. for them she lives and for them she will do the best she can to live her life to the fullest so that one day when and if they feel as she does they remember this day, the day she pushed herself through all of the pain, the sorrow, and despair to leave her mark on the world through her children.
