sliver of light
slipping through the drapes
resting upon my eyelids
teasing me to rise
teasing me to awaken
to the light of the day
to what lies in my way
go away
leave me with the numb comfort
of the previous nights slumber
for, while not restful...
physically unencumbered
how to approach the doubt?
how to unravel the mess
that has become my promise
that has become my promise
the promise that began with birth
when I sprung forth from her girth
all that I was taught
and all that I learned
overturned by heartache and disease
cruel fate of dementia bringing dear mother to her knees
I try to unravel by releasing
releasing the pain into words
often times no one has heard
but to purge them from my soul
may clear a tiny hole
for me to replace with good
ive never understood
the complexity of this mind
the vexing nature of day to day life
its said you need to let the little things go..
yet still I stew
upon the things i didnt do
upon the hurts that I did to you
more than half of what I am expected to live...
has passed by in an instant
seemingly gone faster than a fallen raindrop
Im still no more certain of what is real
than when I was a child learning to feel
still so uncertain
* to any of you who are my new friends on here....I often post poetry and much of it can and will be dark.It is sometimes what I am feeling in my heart and soul.Often times they are random things I am pondering but not necessarily a sign that I am depressed. I sometimes just needto put them out there, and I have to imagine there are times that others feel similar things. Have a beautiful day.
daylight arrives
whether I want it to
the thought of your eyes
has me filled with intoxication
another day longing for
another moment wishing for
a connection
moonlight arrives
my thoughts turn as dark as the sky
does she spend private moments like these?
does she imagine she hears my voice through the breeze?
another moment aching to touch
another moment where the longing is too much
daylight again
sadness my thoughts will rend
as I am for another day...
without her again
eyelids open
light slips inside
was more peaceful before your face entered my thoughts
was more content before you made me do without
longing to lay down
and close my eyelids again
until I reach that place in my dreamworld
where reunited we dance again
a peace has gone, a heart has withered
a dream has died..
angels fly above us
are they really there?
a guiding light to carry us...
or a silly fairy tale?
day after day life happens
with no sense or order
don't tell me I'm not meant to know
thats not enough for me
with my eyes I need to see
the reasons why we bleed
the reasons why we feed
the end we hope to succeed
