Hello, I have mobility problems in my knees; I use a walker. I care for my mother, who is paralyzed and has Alzheimer's. I'm prohibited from doing many things, and because I didn't want to put my mother in a nursing home, my condition worsened. I had an MRI and have an appointment at 9, although this morning my doctor told me it was a little earlier. Since she's not an expert, she told me my condition isn't good. My legs and arm are failing me; the tendon is worn out. And my mother was admitted for pain and anal bleeding in the lower part of her colon. Her blood isn't circulating properly; she's in bad shape, and her condition is terminal. On Friday, they said she wouldn't survive and that if she didn't die, they would sedate her. She started to improve, and even the doctors couldn't believe it. My mother has a lot of natural strength, and now she's eating and has a strong will to live. The doctors told me she might last a few months, who knows, she might come home, and I don't know how I'm going to keep taking care of her. Her children haven't wanted to know anything about her for years.
My daughter is far away; she has lupus, and a few months ago she had heart surgery, another valve replacement. They did a procedure to avoid surgery a year ago, and she was left with many complications, and they forbade her from traveling. The good thing that happened to me yesterday was that her daughter, my granddaughter, had a baby girl, and everything is fine. It's her second daughter; I already have two great-grandchildren.
But they aren't here either until the baby can travel. They can't bring her to meet her, nor can my daughter. Because of all this, I can't log on to the page; everything came together at once.
I miss you all. If someone wants to delete me, I'll understand and I'll be sorry. I'll try to get in. Sending you blessings, hugs, and kisses, Maria. ...
Here I amOn Broken wings Quiet thoughtsUnspoken dreams Here I amAlone again And I need her nowTo hold my hand She's all, she's all I ever had(She's the air I breathe) She's all, she's all I ever hadIt's the way she makes me feel It's the only thing that's real …..Here I am
The wind is moving but I am standing still A life of pages waiting to be filled A heart that's hopeful, a head that's full of dreams But this becoming is harder than it seems Feels like I'm
Looking for a reason Roaming through the night to find My place in this world My place in this world Not a lot to lean on I need Your light to help me find My place in this world My place in this world
If there are millions down on their knees Among the many, can You still hear me? Hear me asking, "Where do I belong?" Is there a vision that I can call my own?