HOW DO YOU SAY GOODBYE
WHEN YOUR HEARTS NOT READY TO LET GO
HOW DO YOU MAKE SENSE OF WHY
WHEN THERES SO MUCH YOU DON'T KNOW

HOW DO YOU TELL YOURSELF THEY'RE GONE
WHEN THEY FEEL SO ALIVE IN YOUR HEART
HOW DO YOU FIND STRENGTH TO RELY UPON
WHEN YOUR WORLD HAS FALLEN APART

HOW DO YOU STOP HEARING THEIR VOICE
WHEN ALL IS QUIET AND YOU'RE ALONE
HOW DO YOU UNDERSTAND GOD'S CHOICE
WHEN HE DECIDED TO BRING THEM HOME

HOW DO YOU LET GO OF ALL THE PAIN
WHEN IT CONSUMES YOU SO
HOW CAN ANYONE EVER EXPLAIN
DEATH'S VICIOUS UNDERTOW

HOW DO YOU STOP YOUR HEART FROM BREAKING
WHEN DEATH HAS CLAIMED A LOVED ONE
HOW DO YOU STOP YOUR ARMS FROM ACHING
WHEN THEY LONG TO HANG ON

HOW DO WE EVER ACCEPT THE FACT
THAT OUR LOVED ONE COMMITTED SUICIDE
IT HIT'S US HARD AND MAKES SUCH AN IMPACT
HOW BAD THEY MUST HAVE FELT DEEP INSIDE

HOW DO WE HEAL THE WOUND THAT BLEEDS
SOME OF US NEVER GOT TO SAY GOODBYE
WHEN DOES THIS HORRIBLE PAIN RECEDE
WILL WE EVER TRULY UNDERSTAND WHY

COPYRIGHT 2009
DEBBY HARRIS

MY SON MICHAEL, COMMITTED SUICIDE IN JULY OF 2009.  HE WAS 29.  HIS PICTURE IS MY AVATAR PIC.  THERE IS NO PAIN LIKE THAT OF LOSING A CHILD.  A PIECE IS RIPPED OUT OF YOU AND IT CAN'T BE REPLACED.  GRIEF IS A JOURNEY THAT HAS MANY ROUGH SPOTS.  I HAVE SOME GOOD DAYS AND SOME BAD DAYS. 

I CREATED A GROUP CALLED "SUICIDE SURVIVORS" UNDER THE BOOMER CENTRAL SECTION.  Y'ALL ARE WELCOME TO VISIT THERE AND WRITE YOUR LOVED ONES STORY AND PLACE THEIR PICTURE ALSO. 

DEBBY  AKA/ CRABBY_CLARA_10

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THERE WERE 5 COUNTRY CHURCHES IN A SMALL TEXAS TOWN:  THE PRESBYTERIAN CHURCH, THE BAPTIST CHURCH, THE METHODIST CHURCH, THE CATHOLIC CHURCH AND THE JEWISH SYNAGOGUE.  EACH CHURCH WAS OVERRUN WITH PESKY SQUIRRELS.

ONE DAY, THE PRESBYTERIAN CHURCH CALLED A MEETING TO DECIDE WHAT TO DO ABOUT THE SQUIRRELS.  AFTER MUCH PRAYER AND CONSIDERATION, THEY DETERMINED THAT THE SQUIRRELS WERE MADE BY GOD, AND THEY SHOULDN'T INTERFERE WITH GOD'S CREATURES.

IN THE BAPTIST CHURCH, THE SQUIRRELS HAD TAKEN UP RESIDENCE IN THE BAPTISMAL AREA.  THE DEACONS MET AND DECIDED TO PUT A COVER ON THE BAPTISMAL POOL TO DROWN THE SQUIRRELS.  THE SQUIRRELS ESCAPED SOMEHOW AND THERE WERE TWICE AS MANY THERE THE NEXT WEEK.

THE METHODIST CHURCH, GOT TOGETHER AND DECIDED NOT TO HARM GOD'S CREATIONS;  SO THEY HUMANELY TRAPPED THE SQUIRRELS AND SET THEM FREE A FEW MILES OUT OF TOWN.  THREE DAYS LATER, THE SQUIRRELS WERE BACK.

THE CATHOLIC CHURCH, CAME UP WITH WHAT THEY THOUGHT WOULD BE AN EFFECTIVE SOLUTION.  THEY BAPTIZED THE SQUIRRELS AND REGISTERED THEM AS MEMBERS OF THE CHURCH.  NOW, THEY WOULD ONLY SEE THEM AT CHRISTMAS AND EASTER.

NOT MUCH WAS HEARD ABOUT HOW THE JEWISH SYNAGOGUE HANDLED THEIR SQUIRREL PROBLEM.  BUT, WHAT WE DID HEAR WAS;  THEY TOOK 1 SQUIRREL AND HAD A SHORT SERVICE WITH HIM CALLED A CIRCUMCISION...AND THEY HAVEN'T SEEN A SQUIRREL ON THE PROPERTY SINCE.

THIS WAS NOT MEANT TO OFFEND ANYONE, REGARDLESS OF YOUR DENOMINATION IF YOU HAVE ONE.  JUST A FUNNY LITTLE STORY I THOUGHT WAS FUNNY.

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I'M GLAD NO ONE WAS ANGRY ABOUT THE *ASTEROID* FUNNY IN MY BLOG "THINGS TO THINK ABOUT."  WELL, I WAS ASKED IF I HAD ANYTHING ELSE FUNNY LIKE THAT.  WELL, I DO HAVE A FUNNY JOKE I WAS TOLD TODAY.  IF IT OFFENDS Y'ALL;  SORRY.  I HAVE A WACKY SENSE OF HUMOR AND THIS MADE ME LAUGH SO HARD I CRIED.

WHAT DOES THE STARSHIP ENTERPRISE (AS IN CAPTAIN KIRKS SPACESHIP) AND TOILET PAPER HAVE IN COMMON?

THEY BOTH CIRCLE URANUS LOOKING FOR THOSE DARNED KLINGONS!!! 

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CAN YOU CRY UNDER WATER?

WHY IS IT THAT PEOPLE SAY THEY "SLEPT LIKE A BABY" WHEN BABIES WAKE UP LIKE EVERY 2 HOURS.

WHY DO DOCTORS LEAVE THE ROOM WHILE YOU CHANGE?  THEY'RE GOING TO SEE YOU NAKED ANYWAY.

WHY IS A BRA SINGULAR AND PANTIES PLURAL?

IF WILE E COYOTE HAS ENOUGH MONEY TO BUY ALL THAT ACME STUFF;  WHY DON'T HE JUST BUY DINNER?

IF CORN OIL IS MADE FROM CORN, AND VEGETABLE OIL IS FROM VEGETABLES;  WHAT IS BABY OIL MADE FROM?

WHY DO THEY CALL IT AN ASTEROID WHEN IT'S OUTSIDE THE HEMISPHERE;  BUT CALL IT A HEMORRHOID WHEN IT'S DOWN BELOW WHERE THE SUN DON'T SHINE?

MY FRIEND ELAINE POSTED THESE ONCE ON MYSPACE AND I WROTE THEM DOWN.  SOME MAKE YOU THINK.

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LIKE THE TALL AND SLENDER REEDS
FRAGILE IS THE HEART THAT BLEEDS
ONCE WHOLE AND OVERJOYED
REPLACED BY ECHOES IN THE VOID

IN LIFE THERE ARE NO GUARANTEES
WE'LL ALWAYS SAIL UPON CALM SEAS
LIKE THE TIDE THAT EBBS AND FLOWS
WE NEVER KNOW WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS

LOVED ONES COME AND THEY GO
WHY...ONLY HEAVEN KNOWS
WE MAY WALK WITH THEM FOR A TIME
AND LOSE THEM IN THEIR PRIME

THEY LEFT FOOTPRINTS ON OUR HEART
WE HEAR THEM STILL THO' WE'RE APART
THEY FILLED OUR LIVES WITH LAUGHTER
THEIR MEMORY LINGERS LONG AFTER

THEY SAIL NOW UPON HEAVEN'S CALM SEAS
SAILING ALONG ON A WARM GENTLE BREEZE
THEIR TROUBLES ALL BEHIND THEM NOW
PAIN HAS TAKEN IT'S FINAL BOW

COPYRIGHT 2008
DEBBY HARRIS

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A MIND THAT WAS ONCE SHARP AS A TACK
IS BEING INVADED AND UNDER ATTACK
ALZHEIMERS HAS TAKEN THE BRAIN HOSTAGE
DEVOURING THE MEMORY IN IT'S RAMPAGE

WATCHING THIS DISEASE RAVAGE YOUR PARENT
RENDERING THEM AT TIMES INCOHERENT
IT'S HEARTBREAKING FOR THE FAMILIES
TO WITNESS THE EFFECTS OF THIS DISEASE

SOME DAYS THEY REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE
OTHER DAYS, THEIR BEHAVIOR IS QUITE BAZAAR
SOMETIMES THEY BECOME COMBATIVE
NOT EVEN RECOGNIZING THEIR RELATIVE

AT FIRST THEIR MEMORY COMES AND GOES
LIKE THE TIDE THAT EBBS AND FLOWS
ALZHEIMERS DOESN'T AFFECT JUST THE PATIENT
FAMILIES ARE PUT THROUGH GRIEF AND TORMENT

MEDICINES ARE BEING DISCOVERED EVERYDAY
BUT A CURE, SEEMS A LONG WAY AWAY
WHAT CAUSES THIS DISEASE TO STRIKE SOME
WHILE OTHERS NEVER SUCCUMB

IF WE CAN DEVELOP HIGH TECH WEAPONS FOR WAR
WHY HAVEN'T PHARMECEUTICALS CAME THAT FAR
THERE NEEDS TO BE MORE RESEARCH ON THIS DISEASE
EVEN IF THE CURE COMES FROM SOMEPLACE OVERSEAS

COPYRIGHT 2008
DEBBY HARRIS

I WROTE THIS FOR MY GRANDMA CLARA.  MY MOM TOOK CARE OF HER AT HER HOME, AS LONG AS SHE COULD.  IT BROKE MY MOM'S HEART TO WATCH HER MOTHER WASTE AWAY MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY.

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A CHILD WAS TOLD TO WRITE A BOOK REPORT ON THE ENTIRE BIBLE.  HERE'S HIS VERSION OF THE BIBLE.

IN THE BEGINNING, WHICH OCCURRED NEAR THE START, THERE WAS NOTHING BUT GOD, DARKNESS AND SOME GAS.  THE BIBLE SAYS, "THE LORD THY GOD IS ONE...BUT I THINK HE'S MUCH OLDER THAN THAT.  ANYWAY, GOD SAID, "SOMEBODY GIVE ME A LIGHT" AND SOMEONE DID.  THEN GOD MADE THE WORLD.

HE SPLIT THE ADAM AND MADE EVE.  ADAM AND EVE WERE NAKED, BUT THEY WEREN'T EMBARRASSED BECAUSE MIRRORS HADN'T BEEN INVENTED YET.  ADAM AND EVE DISOBEYED GOD BY EATING ONE BAD APPLE.  SO THEY WERE DRIVEN FROM THE GARDEN OF EDEN.  I'M NOT SURE WHERE THEY WERE DRIVEN TO, BECAUSE THEY DIDN'T HAVE CARS BACK THEN.

ADAM AND EVE HAD A SON, CAIN, WHO HATED HIS BROTHER AS LONG AS HE WAS ABEL.  PRETTY SOON ALL OF THE EARLY PEOPLE DIED OFF, EXCEPT FOR METHUSELAH, WHO LIVED TO BE LIKE A MILLION SOMETHING.

ONE OF THE NEXT IMPORTANT PEOPLE WAS NOAH.  HE WAS A GOOD GUY, BUT ONE OF HIS KIDS WAS A HAM.  NOAH BUILT A LARGE BOAT AND PUT HIS FAMILY AND SOME ANIMALS ON IT.  HE ASKED SOME OTHER PEOPLE TO JOIN HIM, BUT THEY SAID THEY WOULD HAVE TO TAKE A RAIN CHECK.

AFTER NOAH, CAME ABRAHAM, ISSAC AND JACOB.  JACOB WAS MORE FAMOUS THAN HIS BROTHER ESAU.  BECAUSE ESAU SOLD JACOB HIS BIRTHMARK IN EXCHANGE FOR SOME POT ROAST. JACOB HAD A SON NAMED JOSEPH WHO WORE A REALLY LOUD SPORTS COAT.

ANOTHER IMPORTANT BIBLE GUY WAS MOSES.  HIS REAL NAME WAS CHARLETON HESTON.  HE WAS THE PRESIDENT OF THE NRA.  MOSES LED THE ISRAEL LIGHTS OUT OF EGYPT AND AWAY FROM THE EVIL PHAROAH AFTER GOD SENT 10 PLAGUES ON THE PHAROAHS PEOPLE.  THESE PLAGUES INCLUDED FROGS, MICE, LICE, HEMORRHOIDS AND NO CABLE.  GOD FED THE ISRAEL LIGHTS EVERY DAY WITH MANICOTTI.  THEN HE GAVE THEM HIS TOP TEN COMMANDMENTS.  THESE INCLUDE DON'T LIE, CHEAT, SMOKE, DANCE OR COVER YOUR NEIGHBORS STUFF.  OH YEAH, I ALMOST FORGOT...HUMOR THY FATHER AND THY MOTHER.

ONE OF MOSES' BEST HELPERS WAS JOSHUA.  HE WAS THE FIRST BIBLE GUY TO USE SPIES.  JOSHUA FOUGHT THE BATTLE OF GERITOL AND THE FENCE FELL OVER ON THE TOWN.  AFTER JOSHUA, CAME DAVID.  HE GOT TO BE KING BY KILLING A GIANT WITH A SLINGSHOT.  HE HAD A SON NAMED SOLOMON WHO HAD ABOUT 300 WIVES AND 500 PORCUPINES.  MY TEACHER SAYS HE WAS WISE, BUT THAT MANY WIVES WOULD GIVE ME A HEADACHE.  AFTER SOLOMON THERE WERE A BUNCH OF MAJOR LEAGUE PROPHETS.  ONE OF THESE WAS JONAH, WHO WAS SWALLOWED BY A BIG WHALE AND THEN BARFED BACK UP ON THE SHORE.  THERE WERE ALSO SOME MINOR LEAGUE PROPHETS, BUT I GUESS WE DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT THEM.

AFTER THE OLD TESTAMENT CAME THE NEW TESTAMENT.  JESUS IS THE STAR OF THE NEW TESTAMENT.  HE WAS BORN IN BETHLEHEM IN A BARN TOO.  JUST LIKE I WAS BORN IN A BARN.  MY MOM'S ALWAYS SAYING, "CLOSE THE DOOR.  WERE YOU BORN IN A BARN?" 

DURING HIS LIFE, JESUS HAD MANY ARGUMENTS WITH SINNERS LIKE THE PHARISEES AND THE REPUBLICANS.  JESUS ALSO HAD 12 OPOSSUMS.  THE WORST ONE WAS JUDAS ASPARAGUS.  JUDAS WAS SO EVIL THAT THEY NAMED A TERRIBLE VEGETABLE AFTER HIM.  JESUS WAS A GREAT MAN.  HE HEALED MANY LEOPARDS AND EVEN PREACHED TO SOME GERMANS ON THE MOUNT.  BUT THE REPUBLICANS AND ALL THOSE GUYS PUT JESUS ON TRIAL BEFORE PONTIOUS THE PILOT.  PILOT DIDN'T EVEN STAND UP FOR JESUS.  HE WASHED HIS HANDS INSTEAD.

ANYWAYS, JESUS DIED FOR OUR SINS, THEN CAME BACK TO LIFE AGAIN.  HE WENT UP TO HEAVEN, BUT HE WILL BE BACK AT THE END OF THE ALUMINUM.  HIS RETURN IS FORETOLD IN THE BOOK OF REVOLUTION.

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1.   THE FASTING & PRAYER CONFERENCE INCLUDES MEALS.

2.   THE SERMON THIS MORNING "JESUS WALKS ON WATER."  THE SERVICE TONIGHT "SEARCHING FOR JESUS."

3.   LADIES, LET'S NOT FORGET THE RUMMAGE SALE.  IT'S A CHANCE TO GET RID OF THOSE THINGS YOU NO LONGER WANT OR NEED.  BRING YOUR HUSBANDS.

4.   DON'T LET WORRY KILL YOU OFF-LET THE CHURCH HELP.

5.   MISS MARLENE C. SANG "I WILL NOT PASS THIS WAY AGAIN;  BRINGING OBVIOUS PLEASURE TO THE CONGREGATION.

6.   NEXT THURSDAY WILL BE TRYOUTS FOR THE CHOIR.  THEY NEED ALL THE HELP THE CAN GET.

7.   IRVING CARTER AND JESSIE BENSON WERE MARRIED OCTOBER 24TH IN THE CHURCH.  SO ENDS A FRIENDSHIP THAT BEGAN IN THEIR SCHOOL DAYS.

8.   A BEAN SUPPER WILL BE HELD ON TUESDAY EVENING IN THE CHURCH HALL.  MUSIC WILL FOLLOW. (LOL)

9.   AT THE EVENING SERVICE TONIGHT, THE SERMON TOPIC WILL BE "WHAT IS HELL?"  COME EARLY AND LISTEN TO OUR CHOIR PRACTICE.

10.  POTLUCK SUPPER SUNDAY AT 5 PM.  PRAYER AND MEDICATION TO FOLLOW.

11.  LADIES BIBLE STUDY WILL BE HELD THURSDAY MORNING AT 10 AM.  ALL LADIES ARE INVITED TO LUNCH IN THE FELLOWSHIP HALL AFTER THE B.S. IS DONE.

12.  WEIGHT WATCHERS WILL MEET AT 7 PM AT THE FIRST PRESBYTERIAN CHURCH.  PLEASE USE LARGE DOUBLE DOORS AT THE SIDE ENTRANCE.

13.  THE ASSOCIATE MINISTER UNVEILED THE CHURCHS NEW CAMPAIGN SLOGAN LAST SUNDAY:  "I UPPED MY PLEDGE-UP YOURS."

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IF ONLY I'D HAVE KNOWN
TO SEEK GOD ON HIS THRONE
INSTEAD OF TRYING TO FILL THE VOID
WITH THINGS I SHOULD AVOID

DESPERATELY SEEKING LOVE
NEVER EXPECTING IT FROM ABOVE
LOOKING IN ALL THE WRONG PLACES
SEARCHING IN A SEA OF FACES

I MADE ALOT OF MISTAKES
THAT ENDED UP HEARTACHES
CHASING AN ELUSIVE BUTTERFLY
I COULDN'T SAY GOODBYE

YOU CAN'T DROWN YOUR PAIN
BY NUMBING YOUR PAIN
YOU WON'T FIND THE ANSWERS
IN THE BOTTOM OF PITCHERS

SOME TRY TO COPE WITH DRUGS
A MIND ALTERING ILLUSIONAL HUG
THE UNDERLYING NEED IS PACIFIED
INSTEAD OF BEING RECTIFIED

WE DESTROY OURSELVES EVERYDAY
THINKING THERE IS NO OTHER WAY
SOME PEOPLE BOTTOM OUT
PREFERRING THE EASIEST ROUTE

WE THROW AWAY BLESSINGS
RISK LOSING EVERYTHING
STUBBORNLY OBEYING OUR OWN WILL
WE END UP SPIRITUALLY ILL

WHEN EVERYTHING ELSE HAS FAILED
GOD'S LOVE HAS STILL PREVAILED
HE'S WATCHED US STUMBLE AND FALL
WAITING PATIENTLY UNTIL WE CALL

WHAT TOOK YOU SO LONG MY CHILD
WHY HAVE YOU CHOSEN TO STAY EXILED
THERE'S ALWAYS BEEN AN EASIER WAY
IN PAIN, YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO STAY

THE VOID INSIDE YOU WISH TO FILL
CAN'T BE FILLED BY BOOZE OR PILL
THAT EMPTY FEELING SPACE...
HAS ALWAYS BEEN MY PLACE

COPYRIGHT 2008
DEBBY HARRIS

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