So we keep hearing about 2012. All these people who claim to know something, some with multiple degrees. I mean; they should know something right? And when your old, a new glorified light body sounds pretty darned good. So I've heard so much about so much. Aliens, what about aliens? So many people claiming we have contact with aliens who are here to help us make the change as we evolve into our light bodies. And what about this One World Government, New World Order, The Bildeberg Group? You just hear so much these days that's like; "Oh my God!" When we were kids we never heard stuff like this. Of course everyone wasn't going around trying to sell their book either. Is this all it is? A bunch of money grubbing pigs jerking our chains to sell books? Or is their something to all of this? And if so, which part of this is real and which part is someone trying to make a quick buck? What happens when December 2012 comes about and absolutely nothing happens? Do we just loose faith in everything and everyone? Do we see the world as a pack of pathilogical, money grubbing lyers? That's how I'm going to start seeing them. What about planet x that's heading this way, Niburu? What will happen to Coast to Coast am and Project Camelot? Where will Alex Jones find another job? Stay tuned for this and many other exciting questions to be answered in the very near future. Don't take vaccines of any kind folks because the Bildeburg Group is trying to reduce the population by putting stuff in your food and your vaccines to kill you. And also allowing radiation to spew out into the environment when they have a way to remove it and have for a long time but they keep it a secret so they can murder us all. And did genetically modified potatoes really start eating out the brains of lab rats? And can we actually run our cars on water but they keep this a secret so the money grubbing oil companies can rake in the dow? And have we really had free energy technology since Tesla but they just murder people to keep this all a secret so they can keep on milking us out of every dime we have? Like Sands Through The Hourglass, So Are The Days Of Our Lives On Planet Earth, until the government comes clean and admits they have bases on the moon and Mars and that they plan to move the elites their real soon, if the underground bunker thing doesn't work out.

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     I remember when I was a little girl. My sister, Linda who was the older of us, and two girls next door to us, Sandy and Sherry, were outside swinging on the swings singing, Jesus loves me this I know for the Bible tells me so, and we sang and we sang and we sang, over and over and over again. Suddenly, the sound of a million plus voices filled the entire universe. I say that because that's the only way I can describe it. It was one note sang in unison, a high note like higher than do ray me fa so la ti do. And because it filled all of our being it terrified us beyond belief and we jumped off of our swings in med air and ran home, except for Linda. I can honestly say I never looked back. I just ran and locked the door behind me. I was standing at the door breathless and wide eyed and my mom said; "What in the world is wrong with you? So I told her and she went and got Linda who was still standing their looking up. Linda said the sky was filled with angels. She said they were huge and filled the entire sky. I can't say; I just ran and did not look back. To this day; I wish I had looked up.

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     So we went to a family reunion today on my dad's side of the family. Of course my parents have been dead for a long time now. We are the old folks now, waiting around to die. I look at all of these cousins I used to go to picnics and such with as a child and they've all gotten so old. Some can barely get around any more. It's sad, actually. And I look at their kids and mine and think to myself; You guys are next to be the old people that no one thinks will ever happen to them. We're here today and gone tomorrow, and all of those people we looked up to are long gone now, and soon we will be too, and so on and so on in the circle of life. It's so strange and baffeling to me. What's it all about? What's the purpose? In reality, we don't know much more than a dog or a cat. We tell ourselves we know so much more but we really don't. It's all a big mystery. Some of us have already died young, in their fifties and sixties. And not seeing them their at the reunion was so sad. I can kind of see why people don't have reunions too much. In a way it's depressing. Do I look that old? Well, ya know you do. And then theirs the ones who are in denial. They come hobbling in with a cane and a sling and you say; "Old age is a so horrible isn't it?" What do ya mean? I didn't get this and that and this and that because I'm old?" And you're trying not to let your eyes roll back in their sockets as you're thinking; "Are you insane, lady?" You have one foot in the grave and another on a banana peel." You make me feel young just looking at you." And your husband can barely walk from the van to the picnic table. And he's on the internet talking about going back to dancing again because everyone misses seeing him dance so much and would love to see him dance again.  And I'm thinking; "In your dreams buddy." Are we in touch with reality? But hey, maybe that's the way to do it; live in total denial until one day you don't wake up at all. Maybe I'm doing this wrong. Oh well, at least I can still laugh about it. And my one cousins saying; "Why can't I come and live with one of you, to her kids, and their saying; "We can't take care of you. And she says; I hate living in the nursing home, "if I walk then can I come and stay with you? "No, mom, we still could not take care of you. "Why not, she asks, if I can walk. "Because mom, the doctor said even if you could walk we can not take care of you. And I'm thinking; Why not? It's so depressing. I just hope I go in my sleep. I slipped and fell about six months ago and I prayed to God I'd be able to get up and walk because boy once you get down. Fortunately I got up. My tail bone was killing me for weeks but I got up, PRAISE THE LORD, THANK YOU JESUS! I would not want to be at the mercy of those kids. Heaven forbid. At least I still have my husband to look after me. My cousin lost hers before she fell. Then my one cousin, who is 76 said he was trying to do things and make the best of life. So he bought himself a scooter and enjoyed taking it out on the freeway for rides. So he says he was driving along and one car bumps him off the scooter and the truck behind them load up his scooter and dash away leaving him lying on the highway. He said he was all banged up and didn't think he was going to make it. But he pulled through after spending some time in the hospital. What in the world has happened to people? This world is evil and insane. To do something so horrible to an old man. I hope to God there's something better than this on the other side. I've had enough of this heartlessness and depravity. Well, I'm done ranting, got it off my chest, now I can go dancing with my cousin. He brought all his music but I noticed he wasn't dancing.

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     We got two new puppies, Jacob and Papi. They are Chihuahuas. Jacob is twice the size of Papi. Jacob is the one with the personality. He's the one I have to devote the most time too. He came to us skiddish, fearful and mistrustful. I've had to convince him of my love. He's improving more and more each day as he realizes how much we love him and would never, ever harm him. Papi is the doll. He's just soft and cuddly and lovable. Like he doesn't have a care in the world. They follow me everywhere I go now. Thank you, Jesus for my puppies.

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     My dog is gone. I took a vacation to spend time with her but she's gone. She became suddenly critically ill and now she's gone. It's cold and cloudy and dark outside. I feel as miserable as the weather looks. I want to go to my mother's house and be with her and not be here in this empty house that reminds me of her. My Sadie Lou, my love, my heart break. But my mother died in 1993 and there's no mother to go to any more. No one to make it all better. I hate old age with a passion. I hate loosing the one's we love. I can't do anything to help myself I'm too miserable. I haven't had the heart to even remove her food and water dish. They still sit their in thier usual place. This was so unexpected and so heartbreaking. Soon I'll be all alone with nothing but the ticking of the clock to keep me company. I am so very sad. Sometimes I think God put us here to make us tough. Why I do not know. I bet he's tough. I bet he can take away the things you love without a second thought if he has a good reason to do it. Like teaching us what love really is. And who knows what all else he's trying to teach us. Some people say it's all a big joke on us. There is no God. But if there isn't what is all this crap all about? What's the purpose? There has to be a purpose, a reason. Even humans do things for a purpose or a reason. Oh well, time heals all wounds they say. I'll actually be glad to get back to work, for what I do not know. I don't know anything any more about anything. I just feel sad.

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People who hurt other people are hurting inside themselves for whatever reason. But one of the ways God molds us is by allowing us to be hurt by these people. At first we are crushed and devastated but each time they hurt us we care less and less until one day we don't care at all and then we can see beyond the hatred to the hurting child within that person and only then can we pray for them with a loving heart. Without a loving heart our prayers have no power. So as we get older we realize that everything that happens; happens for a reason when we put our faith and trust in Jesus. He then becomes our father and begins the long painful process of teaching and showing us all the things we were hoping to avoid in the past when we rejected him. Most of us rejected Him because we didn't feel worthy of His love in the first place and were shocked to find out; the greater the sinner, the greater the love our father has for them." Bring out the fatted calf for my son was lost but now he's come home." And then we fall on our faces crying our hearts out when he reveals himself to us because we feel like we don't deserve one bit of this unconditional awesome love he has for us. Especially since we human beings are not even capable of such a love. But' so begins the painful lessons that were probably their all along but we did not recognize them before. We called them, Bad Luck, Bad Karma or just being in the wrong place at the wrong time. But once you've turned your life over to Him even being in the wrong place at the wrong time becomes a life lesson. God never passes up an opportunaty to teach his children life's lessons. But if we ever hope to graduate to a world without hate and mallious and pain; we just have to get through these life lessons. And until we get tough; we cannot think clearlly and pray effectively. I'm proud to say I'm getting tougher every day. And finally am starting to be able to see that; most of the mean spirited things people do and say have nothing what so ever to do with me. Tomorrow, next week, or a year from now that same person who was so mean and nasty may be the nicest person you could ever know because something went right in their life and for a time they are thankful and feel blessed. It's hard to feel thankful and blessed by the bad things that happen to us, even when we realize it's just part of the learning process. We all are guilty of being mean and nasty when life throws us a cactus instead of a flower, but as we learn and grow through Christ; we start catching ourselves, and we say; "Sorry I don't know why I'm acting like such a bitch. I don't know if I'm sick or tired or what but please over look me and accept my apology." I've had to do that many times, especially to my husband." He's my buddy so he becomes my whipping post. Such is life I guess. He can be a real bully himself sometimes, but now I know to just ask him; are you not feeling well today? And he'll say; actually I'm sick as hell or my head is killing me or some such thing and then tomorrow or the next day he'll be fine again. So we have to learn to forgive each other and realize that we are all just human beings having a human experience and if any of us did not deserve to be here; we'd be in paradise with Jesus. I just hope he comes back soon. I'm feeling very old and tired these days. But I thank God that when someone is hurtful towards me; I feel just a momentary twinge,  whereas before I would be broken hearted for days. This is real progress. Thank you Jesus!

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     My heaven will be a place where everyone will have whatever is available to have; if they so desire. Everyone will work some kind of job that contribultes to the welfare of the community. No one job will be considered more or less important than another job. There is no monetary system of any kind. Only people who want to live in a society like this will be their. People who do not wish to work a job will go to a community of like minded people, No longer will they have others to carry their weight. All the bums will be together in Bumsville. Others will go to places that compliment their personalaties and desires. If competition and one uppman ship is what they desire; they will go with other likeminded people and be a part of that community. If war and killing is what you like; you will go to a community of people who enjoy killing. If sickness and misery are your thing; you can be with other miserable people. It's a win, win situation. Everyone gets to be with people who are just like them. In the end; everyone will get what they deserve, being with others who are just like them.

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     With the recent event in Japan, we have people trying to convince other people that their is no God and why would anyone bother to pray about anything when obviously no one is listening?

     My question to you is; why would you try to take away a persons hope and faith?

     I don't know why this terrrible thing happened to the Japanese people; nobody does. These people are so smart and so technilogically advanced they've all but perfected robots that look and act exactly like people. They even blink their eyes appropriately just like a real human. One of the scientists over their made an exact replica of himself. Now if these people keep going these robots will totally take over the world and they'll be no need for humans at all and certainly no jobs. Maybe that's the reason, or maybe it's just because they were in the wrong place at the wrong time. Or maybe the earth goes through these earth changes ever so many thousands of years to keep man from thinking He's God and taking a perfectly good planet and totally destroying it in his utter and complete stupidity and lack of concern for anyone or anything but himself. 

     This much I do know; without hope, without faith; a person has nothing. Because one thing that is absolutely certain for each and every one of us is that we ARE going to die someday. And in the mean time; we are going to have to make some kind of sense of the things happeningl around us that we can live with. 

     For me their certainly is a God and he's been their for me time and time again in the most astounding ways. Maybe it's because I believe in Him that he's their for me.

     Years ago my mom took me to a talk that was being put on by a woman who was a psychic who worked with the police department helping to solve crimes. We went into the meeting hall having no idea who the guest speaker was and we sat down. A few rows up from us was this lady that had on so much makeup she looked rediculous. I said to myself { in my mind) not out loud. That woman looks like a clown. Doesn't she know she has way too much make up on? And that lady totally turned around in her chair and looked me right in the eyes and gave me a big smile as if she'd heard me and was amused by my thoughts. Now this really creaped me out, especially when they announced the guest speaker and she stood up and went to the microphone. That lady heard me think this. I felt horrible, but she looked right at me again and gave me a reassuring smile. 

     Anyway one of the things she talked about was that she went out of town to do a talk one time and forgot the cord to her hair dryer. She was so distraught and was thinking; I wish I had my hair dryer cord. Then she said, just that quickly she forgot about it because their was so much demanding her attention and so she ran to the shower to get ready to go and when she stepped out of the shower the cord materialized in front of her. She said she believes it was because she was able to release the energy of that thought by totally forgetting about it once she thought it. And that if we could just ask for something and then just totally forget about it; we could cause it to materialize but it's something people are not able to do. She said she did it accidentally and probalbly could not consciously ever do it again.

     So maybe that's what faith is; when we believe something so completely that we say a prayer from our hearts believing so totally that God will take care of what ever it is, that we are able to just totally let it go and then it materializes for us. But believing so completely that you can just pray it and forget it idoes not come natural.

     I believe in Jesus and have had my best prayer results when I write him a letter; Dear Jesus, and then just forget about it. I have seen miracles in my life doing this. Maybe it's because I believe. But why would you want to take that away from me because you do not believe? I don't understand. If you had your way no one would believe in anything and no one would have any hope and probably a lot of people would just kill themselves. When in reality; as long as they kept on believing; there's nothing they could not do, nothing that could not happen for them. If you read the words of Jesus, He practically tells you that. Scientists know that the world you see around you is not around you at all; it's in your brain. We have no idea what's really around us. This entire world is like a hallogram we've created in our brains. Now this is something to think  about. If you want to create a world for yourself that does not include a God; that's your choice. I choose to create a world where Jesus is with me every moment of my life and will continue to be  in my life after I die.

     I'm just sick at heart at what happend to the Japanese people and I have no idea why it happened and I have a feeling there's a lot more where that came from. This is just the beginning. Those people who died quickly may have been the lucky ones. I certainly don't want to die a long lengthy horrible death from radiation poisoning. When I die I hope I go in my sleep or at least so quickly I won't even know what happened to me. But there's that word again; Hope. I need that hope. I need that faith. And so do most people on this planet. It's how we get up in the morning and keep on going in spite of it all.  

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     The other night I was dreaming I was young again learning to ride a Harley. It was a warm summer evening and the trees were the greenest green and the breeze blowing ever so slightly. I need to figure out how to have dreams like that all the time. It was wonderful while it lasted.

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