9/8/06 Update--I'm a mystery whose heart is soft but whose will is ironclad after careful examination of the situation at hand. I really hate lying even though in my life I have lied but never to hurt or manipulate. For the first time ever I'm without a mate--I'm enjoying some "down time" you might say, and it's the best time of my life. I live on five acres in the woods and never have any money to buy any extras or, for that matter, necessities. However, I have allowed God to take over, and He's doing quite a job.